Treasured as precious pearl

Felt stranded by the painstaking daily chores and finances but more precise FEAR. False Evidence Appears Real. So my inner child calls me to drink some chicken soup for the soul. Here I am, go and grasp a book and read lots of stories to help myself to rekindle the grace and pride of being a mom (especially an incapable single mom).

Come on, really feel the imminent need. Here is one of the articles I smelt the support:

Mother of Pearls by Natalie June Reilly.
The author has 2 awesome teenager sons. One of them, Alec, cherishes lots of dreams. Among them, one is how to keep his dear mom alive until he himself is 100 years old. The necessary vitamins and determination are his way. How lovely the boy is.

On one window shopping trip at a jewellry shop, the author's eyes fell on a strand of beautiful pearls. Staring it for a moment, her boy asked her why she didn't buy it. She breathed heavily, "Maybe someday....It costs lot of $$."

"I'd buy you one when I'm a vet..." In her eyes and at her heart, she believed that her son would do what he meant.

As they stood outside the shop holding hands, she realized that the real pearls she would receive as a mother were not to be found in a jewelry case windeow, pillowed by blue velvet and pircey price tags. They would be pearls of wisdom and reflection pillowed by the simple, subtle elegance of her life. The pearls in her eye symbolize the milk of motherhood. Every mother should have a strand of genuine pearls around her neck. Just as the pearl is formed around a grain of sand, a mother is formed around the grain of her life and the children in it. She has a way how to smoothen those rough edges in her life and make her world a better place to be.

Yes, I bought a pearl necklace when I was married. For Pearl has been my love (among various precious stones/jewellry). Her roundness, her shine, her formation, her history present some unique charms to me. They are formed out of sand grains(something so valueless) and turn out finally to be some shiny and charming round pearls (so dear).

Yes, life challenges happen everyday at anytime at anywhere out of your control let alone with your permission. As a single mom, to support a family with a single income (sorry, I am still unemployed). The strain exists all the time especially when the negativity falls unmercifully on me. What I have to do: LIVE BY FAITH.

ah. This is life.